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i am so disappointed now. it was just few hours ago i thought everything is back to normal, at last! but i am wrong. the strings of bad things just keep on happening. and this is really draining me out for months. how am i going to put up with these again? i really want to stand strong with my own feet again. but why is this so hard? doubts and fears clouded me. and this is really straining me mentally and emotionally. i hate it when ppl come up and ask me why do i look so emo or why am i looking like a zombie. i hate it when testimony time comes around and i do not know what to give thanks anymore.

God, i really want to continue trusting you everyday and surrendering everything into your hands. pls help me to go through this valley of darkness. i know my days ahead are secure in your hands. lead me lord into the green pastures. i love you.

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Jeff said…
Well, not sure wad r u going through, but just want to tell u there r good part and bad part in our life.

Sometimes, we treat things that feel like abnormal as something bad. In bible, Job still praise the Lord even he lost everything in a moment. In the end he was greatly rewarded by God.

Maybe, we can learn lesson during disappointment, or these experience can make us be wiser and grow. Who knows? Maybe when u went through these annoying experience, u will be a testimony!!

Just give thanks to what u have now!! Give thanks to ur capability of going through these disappointment!! Give thanks to everyone who supporting u!!

Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver."
I believe any frustration, grief, disappointment will make u become more like Him.

Stay strong!! U r not created to "beat rice", but Beatrice,who belongs to the mighty Lord.
Well I know it sounds lame.... hehe
October 12, 2009 at 10:04 PM
Gine said…
darling, what happen? Mind to talk to me about it? Hope I can help you in any way.
October 12, 2009 at 10:08 PM
Liz said…
Don't be disappointed dear. We all go through tough times. As hard as it is, continue trusting in God. You will never go wrong :)
October 14, 2009 at 12:25 AM
Isabel said…
trust me, if u cant even hold on with god, thr's nth u can trust in this whole world, never lose ur faith =) love ya *hugs*
October 31, 2009 at 1:15 AM
David Leong Kin Ming said…
Yea.. sometimes we just feel so alone trying to fight these battles right.. Indeed, there are times when no one can help us, but GOD. And that in itself is beautiful; total dependence upon GOD. Hang in there! Jesus never goes back on His promises!
October 31, 2009 at 9:38 PM
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